Crying game

I always have this sort of expectation on how I'm supposed to feel when something big happens to me. Examples:-

1st- I have always cried at weddings. Once, I attended a church wedding of mummy's friend's daughter and I cried. At both my sister's wedding I cried. So naturally I thought I'd cry at my very own, but no! Zufri did, though. Heh heh.

2nd-When I was pregnant, I cried watching Rachel giving birth. I even cried reading about birthing experiences. But did I cry when Emma was born? Hell no. I mean I did try, but if I did succeed it'd just seem so fake, kan? Haha so I went with my instinct and laughed instead and said "Hello (bukan nak kata Assalamualaikum hehe), do you remember me?". Did not shed a tear.

3rd-When Ujie said her heart broke and how she bawled her eyes out on her way to work the first time she left Maryam, I prepared myself for an all out tear fest. After all, I am (or perhaps used to be) a Drama Queen kan. But again, no. I actually felt (jangan bagitau Zufri tau!) quite relieved to be able to be on my own for 8 hours daily. But of course I can't wait to get home to be with her, but whatever. Haha kejam.

Yelah, lain orang lainlah ragamnya. But so you know, I REALLY wanted to cry at the 3 most important events of my life so far. Too bad they didn't happen. Hahaha. Happy Wednesday!

p/s : Wednesday is my most favourite day.

Happy Raya!

Assalamualaikum semua. Di hari baik bulan baik, walaupun dah 21 hari kita beraya, izinkan saya memohon segala ampun dan maaf atas segala silap dan salah yang telah diperlakukan. Sesungguhnya saya hanya insan biasa.

Ok, now to my post. Hari raya sucked! First, ada drama yang gila-gila membabitkan my stepmom and stepgranny. Malas nak cerita panjang, cukuplah aku cakap yang bapak aku tak spend hari raya eve with his new wife. Sheesh. Nak bawak diri ke kubur. wtf? But she makes a mean kuih suji, man! Seriously.

So this was my first raya with Zufri, and Emma (duh haha). When we were deciding on where to spend the 1st raya, and he decided SP, I asked him to justify his decision. Terus dia pissed off ngan aku. Hohoho. At least I can justify why I wanted to go back to JB first. Because, my part of the family save my small nucleus family, have yet to see Emma. Aku kan pantang kat SP, so sume org dah tengok Emma. Tu je. Senang kan.

2nd day raya kita balik SP pulak. Oh sangat jauh dan membazir wang, OK? And the journey home? Gawd, macam tah hape-hape. Jam gila OK! Sangat penat, walaupun bukan aku yang drive. And to top things off, Monday I start work after two whole months of lazing around. Sigh..

Banyak sebenarnya yang aku nak cerita, tapi budak2 cina depan aku ni bisinglah, plus aku perlu mengepam, dan makan, dan Zohor. Argh. Dan PC kat rumah dah rosak. Argh lagi.