Crying game

I always have this sort of expectation on how I'm supposed to feel when something big happens to me. Examples:-

1st- I have always cried at weddings. Once, I attended a church wedding of mummy's friend's daughter and I cried. At both my sister's wedding I cried. So naturally I thought I'd cry at my very own, but no! Zufri did, though. Heh heh.

2nd-When I was pregnant, I cried watching Rachel giving birth. I even cried reading about birthing experiences. But did I cry when Emma was born? Hell no. I mean I did try, but if I did succeed it'd just seem so fake, kan? Haha so I went with my instinct and laughed instead and said "Hello (bukan nak kata Assalamualaikum hehe), do you remember me?". Did not shed a tear.

3rd-When Ujie said her heart broke and how she bawled her eyes out on her way to work the first time she left Maryam, I prepared myself for an all out tear fest. After all, I am (or perhaps used to be) a Drama Queen kan. But again, no. I actually felt (jangan bagitau Zufri tau!) quite relieved to be able to be on my own for 8 hours daily. But of course I can't wait to get home to be with her, but whatever. Haha kejam.

Yelah, lain orang lainlah ragamnya. But so you know, I REALLY wanted to cry at the 3 most important events of my life so far. Too bad they didn't happen. Hahaha. Happy Wednesday!

p/s : Wednesday is my most favourite day.